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Birth Story | ROWAN JAMES

I started feeling some contractions that were stronger than normal while I was sitting at church on Sunday afternoon, March 3rd. After church I was feeling pretty tired so I tried to take a nap but the contractions kept waking me up. They weren’t that uncomfortable or consistent so I wasn’t sure if they were the real deal. Before we left for family dinner at Brandon’s parent’s in Provo, I wondered if we should bring clothes for the boys in case we had to leave them there and go have a baby. It was 13 days before my due date so I figured we were probably safe and we headed to dinner. I started timing the contractions at 5pm in the car because, while they still weren’t super strong, they were becoming more consistent. They were only about 5 minutes apart when we got to Provo. We had a delicious dinner with Brandon’s family (pasta carbonara, meatballs, salad, garlic bread. YUM. Best pre delivery meal ever! ha ha), me pausing every couple minutes to breathe through a contraction. Around 6:…
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One in Four

It's crazy how quickly things can change. On Thursday, March 15th, we saw and heard our baby's strong heartbeat. 

The following Monday, we discovered it had stopped beating. For reasons we will never know, our precious little one had died.
We shared the news with broken hearts and received an outpouring of love from friends and family. What surprised me was hearing from so many of my friends who had experienced the same tragedy. I'd heard that miscarriages were common but I never thought it would happen to me. 25% of pregnancies end in miscarriage. One in four. There are so many of us. Too many. I never knew how common it was because no one ever talks about it. Why not?? I wanted to write about my experience to 1) help you understand if you've never gone through it and 2) to comfort those who may be in the middle of it. If you are, I am so so sorry.
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One Month Old!

Leo is a whole month old! Wowzers. And isn't he just darling??
I'm gonna be honest--> Having two kids is tough! I can't wait for the day that Leo is big enough for Ander and him to play together! It's so hard when they both need my attention and there is only one me! ha ha. I'm so lucky Brandon is home in the mornings to help out.
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Another Cub- Leo's Birth Story

On Friday, Feb 12th, I went to my 39 week appointment and learned I’d still had no cervical change for yet another week. I left somewhat disappointed because I had done ALMOST everything I could think of to get this labor going→ Spicy food, pineapple, eggplant parmesan, lots of exercise, bouncing on an exercise ball, and, of course, the fun method. ;) Nothing was working! Brandon and I were grateful, however, that we were able to attend an early Valentine's dinner with the family that night. We had an AMAZING meal (we’re talking filet mignon people) after which my sister said, “If you go into labor after this, you’ll know it’s because of my steak”. Ha. I went to bed that night and woke up at 3:15am with stronger than normal contractions. When I started to feel them in my back, I knew it was the real deal. After timing them for a bit, I woke Brandon to tell him we were having a baby soon. I let him (try to) sleep while I went and labored in our bathtub for a while. Th…


Whoa whoa whoa. Slow down there time. You are gettin' a little quick for my liking. Ander Man has gotten big way too fast. He is 18 months old! That's like... a year and a half! =P

 I do have to say that he is sooo much fun at this age, even though we've seen glimpses of his future "terrible two" year old self (oh please let him stay an angel!). He is so independent and so curious about everything.

He sure is a happy little fella. He definitely knows how to get his way with that cute smile of his. I mean, who could say no to that? He is so so sweet and is so good to snuggle with mom and dad.

He still doesn't say a whole lot. He mostly just grunts and points. I'm pretty sure I gave birth to a caveman. ;)
Here's a list of some things he says (and a lot of them are his own interpretations of the word):
Mom, DadNana, Pop PopPapaDog, PuppyBottleBlankieHiNo,Yes (but mostly "no") He can make quite a few animal sounds. I think he just might be convi…

You look like a monkey aaaaand you act like one too!

Happy First Birthday Ander Dare.
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oNcE mEsEs!

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