My mom flew in from AZ to work her magic on Friday, Aug 30th.
She arrived at around 1 pm and we promptly went walking around the nearby
outlet mall for several hours. We went to dinner at 6:30 and during the meal I
started noticing stronger, deeper contractions that were pretty regular. I didn’t
think they were real contractions because I had just been measured at 1.5 cm
dilated 2 days prior and my doctor was thinking I would deliver after my due
date (Sep 5th). I started timing them at about 5-6 minutes apart. Mom
decided we needed to do more walking (ha ha) and so, of course, we went and did
more shopping. The contractions got so uncomfortable that I couldn’t walk
normally. At around 9 pm I called my doctor and he said I could head to the hospital
at any time. I wanted to labor at home as long as possible to avoid the use of
medication so he told me I could wait until they were about three minutes
apart. We went home and watched a movie (How to Lose a Guy in Ten Days) to
distract me from the stronger, more painful contractions. They stopped coming
regularly and I started to feel like maybe I had misjudged true labor. I got
super sleepy and went to bed at 10:30. I got about two hours of uncomfortable
rest before counting the contractions again. They were 5-6 minutes apart again
and much more painful. I knelt down over my birthing ball for each contraction
and Brandon was able to help me with counter pressure on my lower back. A few
hours later I tried laboring in the bathtub. Finally at 5 am, with my
contractions 3-4 minutes apart, I thought we should head to the hospital. They
hooked me up to monitor the contractions and measured me at 6.5 cm dilated. At
this point, I was seriously tempted to ask for some drugs. But Brandon was
there, and with his help, I knew I could do it. The song, “A Child’s Prayer”
ran through my head over and over and was such a comfort to me. An hour later I
was 7 cm dilated and my water broke. Soon after that I got in the tub again,
hoping the jets would ease my back pain. Brandon was the most amazing
coach during the whole process. He was continually pouring water over my tummy
and chest, putting counter pressure on my shoulders, and giving me verbal
affirmations. After an hour in the tub I felt like I really needed to go to the
bathroom but as I sat over the toilet, I suddenly realized what everyone had
meant by, “You’ll know when it’s time to push”. Holy Hannah. I quickly made my
way back to bed and started pushing (and yelling in pain...oops). I heard the
nurses saying that Ander’s heart rate was pretty low and slipping lower. I also
heard them on the phone with my doctor, telling him he was going to miss it if
he didn’t hurry (he was in the parking lot). When he arrived, he let me know
that Ander’s heart rate was really low (at one point as low as 58) and that I
was going to have to have an emergency c-section or I had to push him out right
away. They put an oxygen mask on me and I pushed harder than I’ve ever pushed
for anything. After two more pushes, he was out. The first thing I heard was,
“Look at that hair!” Ha ha. After making sure his heart rate was back to
normal, they put him on my chest. What a glorious moment. Through tears of
relief and pure joy, I started talking to Ander and right away, he looked up at
me. As they stitched me up, Brandon and I marveled over our little angel. Ander
Dare McCloskey was born on Saturday, Aug 31st at 7:07 am at 9 lbs, 2
oz and 20.5 inches long. His name means lion man, warrior, or manly. We have discovered that we named him well as he often roars like a lion. Brandon said our next kid should be named after a humming bird. HA HA!
It's crazy how quickly things can change. On Thursday, March 15th, we saw and heard our baby's strong heartbeat. The following Monday, we discovered it had stopped beating. For reasons we will never know, our precious little one had died. We shared the news with broken hearts and received an outpouring of love from friends and family. What surprised me was hearing from so many of my friends who had experienced the same tragedy. I'd heard that miscarriages were common but I never thought it would happen to me. 25% of pregnancies end in miscarriage. One in four. There are so many of us. Too many. I never knew how common it was because no one ever talks about it. Why not?? I wanted to write about my experience to 1) help you understand if you've never gone through it and 2) to comfort those who may be in the middle of it. If you are, I am so so sorry. I started spotting when I was around 7 weeks along. I wasn't too worried because that is pretty commo...
Beautiful story Jess! You the woman! I am so so happy for you. Look what you did! I can't wait till its my turn!
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